NaniVision :: a look back and beyond today

This time I am tidying up this little dangly bit, so others don't have to, setting things as straight as I can as someone who has learned from experience that the letting go of each evolutionary step is what allows us to evolve. Nothing ironic or contradictory about that catch-22. Not a thing. Except this happened. I was offered a space in a group shamanic ritual Of course, I casually jumped at the (what would be) once-in-a-lifetime offer. How much would I need to donate (read "cost"). How long will it take? I can't miss my plane back to the States. What can I expect? Throwing up and taking turns throwing hanging your ass over a hole in the ground called a toilet. Careful not to fall in!  So I went. And I was the very last to puke, which seemed like I was blessed, but I think it was because I knew not to go back for a second cup. I'm experienced if you know what I mean . For goodness sake, I was already so cleaaannnnn. Our time in Ecuador was a fast-tracked versi

I've been thinking clearly as of late. Many things have transpired against my will... or have they? The question always seems to remain, no matter how much I put things in perspective where they make sense using a combination of logic and historical evidence of behavior. Apparently, it's all in my mind. You see, the truth lies in the truth. Sort of an oxymoron in terms of word usage, "truth" and "lies", but there it is. What I've learned just in the past 6 months, being in Ecuador around so many peace-loving people who, on the surface, are on the right path for their own salvation, so to speak, they are also on the mend from lack of self-love. And therein lies the truth. We, who are seeking our own, unique salvation, are exactly that: we are on our own. Sure, we can seek the tools to gain enlightenment, but they are useless if we do not go to the heart of the matter, which ironically is our heart. Our hearts are the core of our being. Before it even begi